balance.

balance.
That's the main pickle I find myself in almost daily. Trying to somehow figure out how to balance my life. I cannot figure out how to balance my relationship with God, my marriage, school, volunteer work, photography, jobs around the house, grocery shopping, bill paying, and keeping a smile on my face the entire time. I hate that I just said I can't figure out how to balance my relationship with God and my marriage. That's probably not the right way to put it. My relationship with God and my marriage are the MOST important tasks on my "balance list". Maybe I should say this: I cannot figure out how to balance everything I have to do, on top of putting these two on the TOP! That really is the jist of it! I want to spend ALL the time I can talking to God and listening to Him while reading His Word. I want to praise him constantly. I want him to know how thankful I am for EVERYTHING he has done for me. I also want to spend as much time as I can with Caleb. I'm obsessed with him. He's the goofiest and most fun person I have EVER met. When I know I should be editing pictures or writing a paper for an education class, I also choose to spend just "10 more minutes" with him. Which eventually leads to about 2 hours of us watching our favorite shows that we DVR! My goal for the next month, is to find a way to balance it all. I want to enjoy life! I do not want to constantly be trying to fit something into this schedule or another thing into my other planner! I am excited to see how I do with this task! It's going to be very interesting considering I have 9 projects due by April 28th for school! :)

Ahh, what it really comes down to is this:
I need to realize that the things that seem so important and such BIG DEALS to me are actually not that important.